I can do that, I just can’t do that right now.

“Not right now” has been the last 8 years. Wondering if there will ever  be another, “Yes, I can do that!” Or, has the ship sailed on the rest of my yesses?

Recently I turned 65 chronologically, and my body turned 110. I did not plan it this way. Generally losing patience waiting for the day I can get out of bed, get dressed, and go somewhere where I’m needed or at least welcome. I just can’t do that right now. Right now I can get from the bed to the couch where I lay on a heating pad or ice for 2 to 3 hours and then go through every mental exercise to give me the energy and the gumption to sit up.

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